ext_84776 ([identity profile] paula-lirio.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] spn_reversebang2012-11-26 08:34 am

My Lungs Ache Filled With Water

Art Prompt Title: Mine And No Other
Art link: Art Masterlist
Prompt Number: 1007
Artist: [livejournal.com profile] bt_kady

Fic Title: My Lungs Ache Filled With Water
Author: [livejournal.com profile] paula_lirio
Fandom/Genre: SPN, angst
Pairing(s): Sam/Dean
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~19,500
Warnings: Mention of prostitution (OC), mention of suicide (not Sam or Dean), minor character death, mention of suicide thoughts.

Summary: It’s like when you remember you’re breathing. Every breath feels unnatural and mechanic. It’s like trying to forget about it so you can breathe properly, but never being able to again. It’s like spending the rest of your life feeling like you’re doing it wrong, like you’re not getting enough air. That’s what if feels like for Dean, being in love with Sam. And then one day, Sam goes and makes it worse.